Envy

The grass is always greener on the other side. I think I've finally reached a calm with where I am in life. I'm on the road to finishing my first full record, I've got a fun job that pays me (albeit in dirt) to go on adventures like American Idol auditions, and allows me to speak to artists like Lisa Loeb and Hayley Williams... even if it induces a lot of restlessness in me...I've got a great family, and while I haven't kept in contact with a lot of college friends, I've managed to maintain bonds with my high school girls and of course, the friends I've always grown up with. I've got a great boyfriend and really, I can't complain. I'm never going to be content unless I've really made something of myself, so for now I just need to relax and be okay with that.

Work is busy today, but I've managed some blog time and avoided hyper self-reflection. I could go for a shopping spree, but I know I can't really afford it.

Oh being a poor college graduate...